I have my conditioning, things I learned to believe about myself.” And I asked myself: “Who am I actually? How do I feel about things? What do I like or don’t like? Who am I beyond my story?” I realized that I can actually find out and create my life.

Veeresh brought Osho’s message for me into a practical reality and in his programs and courses I could heal my wounds and traumas. I learned to let go of my anger and the resentments that I had accumulated in my past.

With me you get what you see. You get all of me, all my colors and all that comes with intensity. I love that about me. I respect myself because I know I am a good person with loving intentions.

I see fear as one of the main roots of conflicts in our relationships, whether it’s working or love relationships, or in the way we relate with our friends and family. Because of fear we don’t dear to be ourselves and to be open. Instead, we feel we have to keep our guard up.

Without fear, who would you be? If you take away the fear you become the person you dream of being. You may admire or envy some qualities in other people and don’t realise you also have these qualities – you just don’t dare to step out of your box and live them. 

World war II and the Holocaust was over.

We loved to play and climb in the many ruins which was strictly forbidden for us post-war kids. I was born in 1950 and spent my first ten years in the coal mining and steel production district of Germany (“Ruhrpott”). I remember the emaciated devastated pallid withdrawn P.O.W.`s repatriated from Russia and Siberia. Some of them hardly ever talked again and shut down emotionally and socially like one of my uncles who had been accused of war crimes in Poland but had a narrow escape from being hanged because his slave workers stood up for him. Another irascible uncle threatened his family by his sudden unexpected hyper aggressive outbreaks of choleric attacks and excessive anger. He imposed mayor psychological burdens on his terrified spouse and son.

25 years later psychiatrists started to call these conditions post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

Veeresh showed me that my intentions are good. I am a loving man and I see the same in you. My behavior is not always appropriate and sometimes I make mistakes, but who I am as a human being is good. When you operate from that position you learn to trust yourself. The more you trust yourself especially in difficult situations, the more you will appreciate the opportunity to make mistakes because then you can learn more and grow.

I choose to come from a position of love and create relationships the way I would like to be treated. If the other doesn't respond, I don't get caught up with trying to get them to accept my love. My need is to love.

For me the Osho Humaniversity is an extension of Osho's dream, an opportunity to be myself, to share who I am and express my love. 

A commune that is based on awareness and love gives a real sense of identity and belonging, which helps everyone to find out who they are. People start to look inside and understand that "I am lovable, I am a good person.